Reconnect the Disconnected Dots

 Letting go of someone is one of the hardest things I've ever done and I've had to do it a few times with him. I think I loe him and hes very special to me. I'm happy we were given this one last chance to spend this time together befor we both start our new lives. Thanks world, this guilty pleasure will always be a very happy memory for me :)

Splendid.

I dont know much
but i know this for certian,
and that is the sun poking it's head round the curtain,
now, please can we leave
i'd like to go to bed now,
it's not just the sun that is hurting my head now.

I'm not try'na say that i'm smelling of roses,
but when will we tire of putting s*it up our noses.

I dont like stayin up, stayin up past the sunlight,
it's meant to be fun and this just dosen't feel right.

Why can't we all, all just be honest
admit to ourselves that everyones on it

All done. I'm okay.

I wish I could believe you then I'll be alright
But now everything you told me really don't apply
To the way I feel inside
Loving you was easy once upon a time
But now my suspicions of you have multiplied
And it's all because you lied

Just can't seem to get over the way you hurt me
Don't know how you gave another who didn't mean a thing, no
The very thing you gave to me
I thought I could forgive you and I know you've changed
As much as I wanna trust you I know it ain't the same
And it's all because you lied

I may never understand why
I'm doing the best that I can and I
I tried and I tried to forget this
I'm much too full of resentment

I'll always remember feeling like I was no good
Like I couldn't do it for you like your mistress could
And it's all because you lied

I know she was attractive but I was here first
Been ridin' with you for six years why did I deserve
To be treated this way by you, you
I know your probably thinking what's up with Bee
I been crying for too long what did you do to me
I used to be so strong but now you took my soul
I'm crying cant stop crying cant stop crying
You could of told me that you wasn't happy
I know you didn't wanna hurt me
But look what you done-done to me now

I have a house in 3 sleeps.
I seem to have a man.
I guess it all works out.

xoxo 

I'm a virgin.

the plug for the holes inside doesn't seem to fit anymore 

 tell me i'm wrong, that i'm coming on way too strong

just do it with love

There used to be a lot of things
That I didn’t know
And although they still exist
I try not to let them show
But I think that now you’ve seen me
For my true colours
I’m sure you recognise i’m more stupid than the others

But I love you
Oh I love you

I've seen you try to laugh at all of my bad jokes
And I’ve cooked you seven meals six of them one on which you've choked
But it has taken me a while
To get used to this new feeling
When I woke up with a smile
Oh, I nearly started screaming

I love you

 I was your silver lining,
but now I'm gold?

 We push ourselves every which way.
All in the persuit of experience.
We compromise ourselves for mere hours of happiness.
Then we curse the fragments of our souls we've broken apart from.
We look forward to the adventures we'll have
We regret the places we left behind.
We miss the touch of a comforting presence 
and we wonder if it ever was love.

The diamond has finally begun to crack.
The pain is unbearable.
The regret it confusing.
The longing in unrequetted.
The tears have finally started to flow.

Who am I?

You selfish bitch.

 I am as filthy as I've ever been, but i'm not concerned because I'm the youngest that I'm going to be in years.

did my heart break enough?
did it break enough this time?

here's to all the pretty words
we will never speak
here's to all the pretty girls
you're gonna meet